So, 7 things I want. And I'm not going to write stupid stuff like 'World Peace', for the same reason that the 9 loves wasn't all 'Jesus'.
1. More time
Really, my life could use a few more hours in the day, or a couple more days in the week. Given that I thrive when I have at least a couple of hours of silence each day, and then I have to sleep and eat and wash and crochet and knit and read and get dressed and do church stuff and do housework and read more and listen to music and talk to people and work and read and ride my bike and pray and meet friends and read and bake and cook and DO ALL THE THINGS every day, I could use more time.
Or possibly, I could do with slowing down a bit and not trying to do All The Things every day.
2. Restored relationships
I hate when people fall out, or shun each other, or argue endlessly, or stop speaking. To me, disagreement, hurt, and betrayal are part of relationships, but they are balanced out by love, forgiveness, fun, joy, encouragement, hope, sharing, listening, being together and enjoying each other.
As a friend, you don't lose me easily. I'm generally not bad at forgiving, and hanging in there, and not walking off in a huff if you upset me. You could probably try to murder me, and I'd be like "So, what say we have a cup of tea and try to talk through why you might want me dead?". So it upsets me when other people fall out, especially over stupid stuff, and I particularly hate being dragged into it.
So if you could all just get along, that'd be great.
3. To be able to travel again
I've always loved to travel. I love seeing new cultures and places and hearing new languages and seeing things that are different. But in the past few years I've not been able to do that, for Medical Reasons (namely, that if I go more than 20 miles from home, I get hysterical and need medical intervention).
Mr Smile has never been to Amsterdam, and I'd like to take him. I'd love to see a cheap holiday to somewhere new and just book it. I want my children to experience foreign cultures and learn that the world doesn't revolve around them and that their point of view is not the only one.
4. Children
I've always wanted children. I used to think it'd be nice to have a whole football team of them, but now I've lowered my limit to maybe just a couple. I love working with children, seeing how they look at the world, enjoying their weird random ideas and thoughts, and learning to trust and love and learn through their eyes.
5. Northern Ireland to sort itself out
Ok, this is maybe a bit too close to 'World Peace', but I'd really like Northern Ireland to stop fighting. I love our country - the hills, the mountains, the fields, the rivers, the cities. I love the people, the banter, the craic, the music, the culture. I love the way we do things and the way we welcome visitors.
I just think we need to stop fighting over stuff that might or might not have happened up to 300 years ago, which we're generally not that clued up on anyway. We need to get over the 'my side is better than your side' thing, and the stupid flags and parades and naming play parks after terrorists, and murals and riots. We need to stop throwing a hissy fit every time things don't go how we would like them to.
6. A reduced amount of stuff, but not of craft stuff
Recently I've become more and more attracted to the idea of minimalism, of not having more than you need, of clearing the clutter and releasing myself from the hold of stuff. I'm kind of a hoarder (though I've improved a fair bit in the past few years), and I can always look at something and see how it might be useful some day. The number of things I have filed away in case I ever need somewhere to plant stuff is becoming insane.
I've never been a big one for buying lots of stuff in any case. My phone, car, tv etc are all pretty old (well, I now have a newer tv, which belongs to Mr Smile), and I'm happy with that. I'm not constantly worried about what will happen if they get lost or damaged; nor do I have any interest in upgrading to the latest and best, because I'm quite content as long as they perform their intended function. I try not to spend money unless I need to - not out of trying to save it all up, but simply because I'd rather be able to use my money for good stuff than to waste it on stuff that's just going to get chucked out in a few months or years.
I'd love to be able to be more generous; to give more stuff away. When a friend needs cash in an emergency, I like to know I can help out. I prefer stuff to be communal rather than private. I like being able to lend stuff and borrow stuff, rather than having to own it, and then own a space to store it.
But I do like craft stuff, and I keep a ton of it on the basis that I might need it for a project some day.
7. To really enjoy food
I have a love-hate relationship with food. I quite enjoy cooking, and I like to experiment, but I also have weird hang-ups with food which mean that sometimes I can't stand to be in the same room as it. I'd love to be able to say "Yes, I'll go for dinner with you to try that new restaurant", without getting there and panicking because it's all food and food sometimes makes me cry.
So I'd love to be able to really enjoy the sight, smell and taste of food.
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